Saw it from her first words

Intuition validated

so much empathy

need to help

but I didn’t see the desire she felt for me

I didn’t see what it could be,

though I had it myself, emanating from every pore

Though I felt what she was

I didn’t feel what she wanted

So damn smart

So damn aware

unless it’s right in front of my face, like the messages, the notes, the things she did that she didn’t do for anyone else.  From a 1,000 miles away.

So, indeed I saw the warmth

just didn’t know it was only for me.


Looking back, I can’t breathe.