Archive for July, 2012

High Above

Always said she was too good
I’d never be what she deserved
the knowledge of that
really started to burn

so it made it so easy
when I started to see
that that decision
was never up to me

good enough or not
faulty or perfect to flaunt
It’s always been up to her
to say I’m the one she wants


You always want to know
why I think the worst
of what you see as something so minor

Because no matter what I do
this is the first
I’ve felt love that couldnt be kinder

and I’ve told you I can’t lose you
and you tell me that I won’t
nightmares illustrate the darkness
even if I don’t

So I’m learning slowly how to be secure
to trust in your eyes and your words
and cast aside my fear

So I’m learning the you’re not going anywhere
to trust in myself and my actions
and treat myself fair

That what I’ve said
about what you’ve done
and how loving you has been my life’s peak

that you feel the same way about me
believe me that makes me weak

so There it is
for you to grasp
that I’m coming to grips
with a really large task

that feeling secure in your devotion
and trusting myself to hold on
is quickly becoming a certainty
and no longer one to grow on

I’m seeing in slow motion

that the holding on of angels
that your love has become

that I know I’ve experienced never

that the emotional, spiritual,
conversational, physical pull

that I know I’ve experienced never

will be there always and forever

Because of the words I’ve heard before never
“Ill never give up on you….”

there it is.

I love you…..
From the moment I heard your words, laid eyes on you, til my physical form loses it’s light….


Nobody has said
The things you’ve said
Nobody has looked at me
the way that you have

I wonder what it is that you saw
because nobody has answered my questions in a way
that made me drop whats in my hands, along with my jaw

So Many Things
That I can barely absorb

So many faces you’ve made
that I’ve never known before

and I wonder what’s going through your mind
as you hold my name in your voice
and it sounds like its from another time

so I’ve got to question
whether it’s all real
if it stays after I sleep
and if it’s for me
and if I’m indeed worthy

Nobody has felt like arms that are open
and will enfold me as I walk in
Nobody has felt like a warm, kinked smile
a sensual and happy knowing grin

I’ve wondered what it was that I said
that caught you, pulled you, made you turn your head
I’ve wondered what it is that you have seen
that made you doubtlessly know it was I that you’d need

I told you all the ways I’ve never been here before
and it’s so effortless for you, you can’t believe how I react

The day may come when it all seems par for the course
and I can begin to find some way to pay you back

You’re all I want, there’s nothing else
and you’ve told me the same
When you can see how amazing you are
and see how I envision you

You’ll know why it’s so hard to grasp
why I am everything that will satisfy you

I’m walking slow but getting there
be patient, I’m on my way
because Nobody has done what you’ve done to me
Nobody has said what you continue to say.

mid day message